Every experience that I've ever had with moving has been chaotic and mind-boggling.
Moving Experience #1:
When I was 17 and we moved, I packed a total of two boxes because I was in the middle of my senior year of high school and had no time. The morning we were set to move my parents screamed at me because my room still looked like I was going to come home to later that night. As far as the unpacking, well I finished unpacking my new room when I started packing stuff to move to college.
Moving Experience #2:
Moving into college was also crazy. My roommate and I were both trying to figure out where to put furniture and our stuff and so on, plus with all of our stuff all over the floor you could barely walk in the room. I was pretty sure I was never going to get everything unpacked and into it's proper place. If my parents hadn't been there, well I probably would have quit college before it ever started.
Moving Experience #3:
When I switched rooms after first semester of my freshmen year, I was not allowed to unpack anything. I was allowed to pile stuff on the bed. I moved smack in the middle of my first time of college finals, again while my roommate's parents happened to be there helping her pack TO GO HOME. I also had to pack to go home for 6 weeks. So I had to figure out what I needed to bring home plus what I needed to stay. And I moved everything down 2 floors all by myself. I somehow managed it all in one day but I was in so much pain after that I wanted to die. I don't think I ever felt so alone in my entire life and I did that day. And then the next day I had to get on a 5 hour flight home and it was the first time I was flying alone. It was pretty shitty and stressful.
Moving Experience #4:
See I think moving into college this year was almost harder then last year. Last year I brought less stuff because I really had no idea what I would need. You don't know what you need at college until you've already been there. My mom and my sister were there to help this year (though Melinda was sick so she didn't do anything) and it literally took us ALL DAY TO MOVE. We got to my dorm at 9am and didn't finish until about 9pm. Oh yeah...we didn't actually finish either. My room this semester wasn't unpacked totally until about the third week of classes. SUCK.
So now, moving experience #5 and guess what...no stress. And I keep thinking that I must be missing something. Like there is no way that I'm ready to move all of my stuff at 3pm today and actually maybe be done in a few hours. I don't believe it. But I went over everything. I already cleaned out most of my closet. My bed is done, most of the stuff is taken off the walls, electronics except for my clock and my desk lamp are unplugged. I just have to figure out in order to move things. First, I'm taking the carpet. Then I'm probably gonna put everything under my bed. After that will be clothes. Then the shelves in my closet. Last, but not least will be my textbook/printer stand. Then the stuff on my desk. The stuff that goes in my desk is already bagged up and ready to go. Then there's just the few things I have on the windowsill. Granted, I probably won't get all my posters hung up tonight. But I'm feeling like this is going to be the easiest move I've ever done.
Now this would be exceptionally nice because I'm right in the middle of my semester and you know...I still have classes and stuff tomorrow. Actually, that stuff is putting on Dumbledore's Army of New Paltz's first program of the semester. So tomorrow is actually going to be an insane day. I also have a research assignment due on Friday. Haven't started that yet. Oops.
The point is, if I can move smoothly tonight, life would be great. I honestly think the hardest part is going to be moving the bed up. Once that is done though, I feel like it's going to be a piece of cake. I mean yes it's a pain in the ass to carry all my shit down a floor, especially with no elevator. But I'm putting it in exactly the same spot that it's in now...just in a different room. So I'm thinking that's why it's going to be easier. Also, Jon is going to be helping me from 3pm-6pm and then Kevin is going to be helping me from like 7pm- whenever I decide to give up for the night and go to sleep. So probably like 10:30. I mean that gives me like 6 hours if I take an hour to go get dinner.
I really hope I'm not fooling myself. I'd like it to go easily. It would make things so much better. Wish me luck!
:)
October 26, 2010
October 25, 2010
Dog Days are Over
This weekend, both Saturday and Sunday started out as really great days. Yesterday I went and saw The Wakeville Stories, a play written by my Honors Comp 1 professor and it was epically amazing. I went with Jon and his friend Rich. The play was really interesting and I loved seeing something that a professor I really admire created. However as all good things usually do, the day came to a horrible end. Sadly, certain things have gotten out of control with my roommate.
My mom had some really good insight last week that I realized applied last night. She said in April her life fell apart and I guess I never realized it until now, but mine did too. I don't think you can actually lose a parent, or a spouse, or a child, without your life falling apart. I'm not sure why I was pushing this fact away. The fact is, my life has fallen apart. But it didn't fall apart because of something I did. It just happened. There was nothing I could do to control. But I think before I can pick up the pieces, I probably need to admit that it's fallen apart. Which I finally did last night. How does this relate to my roommate situation? Well, before my dad died, I probably could have dealt with this situation, piece of cake. But right now my strength is missing. So instead of feeling like a failure, I've realized that it's ok to be weak sometimes. I have every damn right to be weak right now. So what if this hit 6 months after? The grieving process really does take a year, if not longer.
Since this realization, I can't say I feel too great. I'm feeling emotionally tired and depressed and I don't want to feel it, but I also don't exactly know how to make it go away. With that being said, at least certain parts of my life still make me happy.
Today was Make a Difference Day and my chapter participated. We ended up volunteering at an Apple Orchard and basically we picked and ate apples for 2 hours. It was ridiculously fun and easy. It was a great way for my HPA chapter to bond and I think we all left feeling like we had done something good. It's those things that make me want to become happy again. The truth is I absolutely LOVE being a CO. It makes my life better and it is the one thing in my life that I constantly look forward to. I feel like it's sort of been my therapy through this year.
Monday Afternoon:
I meant to finish up this blog yesterday, but I guess I never got around to it. It got to be a crazy afternoon.
Continuing on from the awesomness of being a CO...we're having a program on Wednesday. It's our chapter's first official program of the semester and it's going to be awesome. We're doing a screening of AVPM and selling owl cookies. The money is then going to be donated to Friends of Esther. It's pretty exciting. Yesterday I was in such a great mood to blog but right now not so much. So I'm just going to end this before my rambling gets annoying. :)
My mom had some really good insight last week that I realized applied last night. She said in April her life fell apart and I guess I never realized it until now, but mine did too. I don't think you can actually lose a parent, or a spouse, or a child, without your life falling apart. I'm not sure why I was pushing this fact away. The fact is, my life has fallen apart. But it didn't fall apart because of something I did. It just happened. There was nothing I could do to control. But I think before I can pick up the pieces, I probably need to admit that it's fallen apart. Which I finally did last night. How does this relate to my roommate situation? Well, before my dad died, I probably could have dealt with this situation, piece of cake. But right now my strength is missing. So instead of feeling like a failure, I've realized that it's ok to be weak sometimes. I have every damn right to be weak right now. So what if this hit 6 months after? The grieving process really does take a year, if not longer.
Since this realization, I can't say I feel too great. I'm feeling emotionally tired and depressed and I don't want to feel it, but I also don't exactly know how to make it go away. With that being said, at least certain parts of my life still make me happy.
Today was Make a Difference Day and my chapter participated. We ended up volunteering at an Apple Orchard and basically we picked and ate apples for 2 hours. It was ridiculously fun and easy. It was a great way for my HPA chapter to bond and I think we all left feeling like we had done something good. It's those things that make me want to become happy again. The truth is I absolutely LOVE being a CO. It makes my life better and it is the one thing in my life that I constantly look forward to. I feel like it's sort of been my therapy through this year.
Monday Afternoon:
I meant to finish up this blog yesterday, but I guess I never got around to it. It got to be a crazy afternoon.
Continuing on from the awesomness of being a CO...we're having a program on Wednesday. It's our chapter's first official program of the semester and it's going to be awesome. We're doing a screening of AVPM and selling owl cookies. The money is then going to be donated to Friends of Esther. It's pretty exciting. Yesterday I was in such a great mood to blog but right now not so much. So I'm just going to end this before my rambling gets annoying. :)
October 22, 2010
Lost Headphones and Failing a Poetry Quiz 101
Wednesday was probably the most crazy jam-packed day I've had this semester. I had class. Then I went to Student Activities to find out why I did not receive an e-mail approving the food we are selling at our A Very Potter Musical Screening next week. It turns out he forgot. Oops. Yes. Thank you. How lovely. Next I was off to the library to get an insane amount of work done. Did that happen? Ehh...sort of. You know how it is. After that I had to prep for my meeting and print everything out because I was left for the library again at 3pm and would not be returning until around 10pm. So...library. Read for Business. Go to Business. Work on group project for Business. Go to E-borad meeting. Discuss Yule Ball in April (yes we are having a Yule Ball in April). Go to actual HPA chapter meeting. Go to Meeting of the Minds. Go home? Read for women in lit group project. Pass out.
Why did I just give a recap of my day you might ask? Because somewhere between walking from class to the Student Union and returning to my lovely abode at 10:30pm Wednesday, I LOST MY HEADPHONES!
NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO. They are gone. Forever. And I have thrown things around my room attempting to find them with no avail. I'm pretty sure they fell out of my bag during the Meeting of the Minds, because at that meeting I had my stuff pretty much...well...everywhere. I mean it was not pretty. So now, I have no headphones. I cannot listen to music on my way to class AND I cannot finish watching Life Unexpected while my roommate sleeps through life. GAHHHHH.
Thankfully, life will go on. That's why there is a radio shack...which I will conveniently stop by on my way back from work tonight.
One more thing before I go. Today I had a ridiculously hard Poetry Quiz. I mean like the thing was a beast. And my professor, whom by the way I think is amazing, did NOT PREPARE US AT ALL. I heard most of the class walk out saying that they all failed and I am sad to say that I am among them. stupid stupid poetry...
Why did I just give a recap of my day you might ask? Because somewhere between walking from class to the Student Union and returning to my lovely abode at 10:30pm Wednesday, I LOST MY HEADPHONES!
NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO. They are gone. Forever. And I have thrown things around my room attempting to find them with no avail. I'm pretty sure they fell out of my bag during the Meeting of the Minds, because at that meeting I had my stuff pretty much...well...everywhere. I mean it was not pretty. So now, I have no headphones. I cannot listen to music on my way to class AND I cannot finish watching Life Unexpected while my roommate sleeps through life. GAHHHHH.
Thankfully, life will go on. That's why there is a radio shack...which I will conveniently stop by on my way back from work tonight.
One more thing before I go. Today I had a ridiculously hard Poetry Quiz. I mean like the thing was a beast. And my professor, whom by the way I think is amazing, did NOT PREPARE US AT ALL. I heard most of the class walk out saying that they all failed and I am sad to say that I am among them. stupid stupid poetry...
October 18, 2010
A Funk Mood
Usually writing is my tool to get everything out and make me feel better so I'm going to have a go at it. I'm in a funk. Like a real one. Yesterday was pretty bad but I figured everyone has their bad days right? But today, instead of waking up and feeling better and enjoying life...I'm just BLAH.
Now I understand the word Blah is not an actually feeling or emotion, but everyone seems to understand what it means. Blah is when nothing is going right and your entire body for some unknown reason is just dysfunctional. Like you don't want to move. Or even attempt to get out of bed. It's the feeling where all you want to do is lay there and be absolutely miserable. BLAH.
I'm not even sure why I'm in this funk. It's not like things are going bad. Things are actually going really good. I got a 93% on my Women in Lit test, which I thought I totally failed. My Women in Lit professor even gave us breakfast this morning which was pretty sweet (literally...he got us doughnuts) :)
Annnnd the guy I like, who seems to like me too and is just afraid to make a move, is actually attempting to make a move. Which by the way I'm finding to be extremely cute.
So why the funk? Who knows? I mean I'm pretty sure I know what started it. On Saturday night I had a very vivid dream about my dad. And I woke up and knew that it happened but I kind of tried to push it away. I try not to let that stuff take over my life because I'm very set on enjoying EVERYTHING. But then my mom and I talked and she had had the same kind of dream and then I remembered that it's been 6 months and then it kind of went from there.
I know I probably shouldn't do this, but I think I'm going to take the next 30 minutes to just relax. Maybe read a little bit, or maybe just lay in bed and listen to some music. I don't know if that will help, but I really would like to calm down before I attempt to tackle the bajillion things that I constantly have to do. I may come back to writing later, so if I post again later today, don't be surprised.
Now I understand the word Blah is not an actually feeling or emotion, but everyone seems to understand what it means. Blah is when nothing is going right and your entire body for some unknown reason is just dysfunctional. Like you don't want to move. Or even attempt to get out of bed. It's the feeling where all you want to do is lay there and be absolutely miserable. BLAH.
I'm not even sure why I'm in this funk. It's not like things are going bad. Things are actually going really good. I got a 93% on my Women in Lit test, which I thought I totally failed. My Women in Lit professor even gave us breakfast this morning which was pretty sweet (literally...he got us doughnuts) :)
Annnnd the guy I like, who seems to like me too and is just afraid to make a move, is actually attempting to make a move. Which by the way I'm finding to be extremely cute.
So why the funk? Who knows? I mean I'm pretty sure I know what started it. On Saturday night I had a very vivid dream about my dad. And I woke up and knew that it happened but I kind of tried to push it away. I try not to let that stuff take over my life because I'm very set on enjoying EVERYTHING. But then my mom and I talked and she had had the same kind of dream and then I remembered that it's been 6 months and then it kind of went from there.
I know I probably shouldn't do this, but I think I'm going to take the next 30 minutes to just relax. Maybe read a little bit, or maybe just lay in bed and listen to some music. I don't know if that will help, but I really would like to calm down before I attempt to tackle the bajillion things that I constantly have to do. I may come back to writing later, so if I post again later today, don't be surprised.
October 16, 2010
A Bit of Spare Time
So I had a few spare minutes after getting out of the shower before I have to go to our QUIDDITCH meeting and it really isn't enough time to study for French so I thought, "Why don't I write a blog post?"
And here we are. So the last week has been pretty horrible. Eli's appendix apparently burst on...Tuesday? And then the next day the bacteria started to drip down his spine. Basically he had like 3 surgeries in a row to try and clean out the bacteria. Thankfully, it finally seems to be working. But the week was pretty stressful because all I did was basically pray that he was going to be ok.
Today has been a pretty exciting day. This morning, Sarah, Nicole, and I went into a sweet shop in town to try and find something to sell the week of Halloween for Dumbledore's Army. We found something pretty amazing (which I can't talk about because it's not approved yet) and we're hoping that people will enjoy :)
Tonight, Liz, me, and a bunch of other people (hopefully) are going out. This will be the first time I've gone out all semester and I'm pretty excited. I mean, I do work tomorrow, so I can't be out too late, but it'll still be fun. I hope. It depends on who is actually going to go with us I guess.
Well I have to go run off to do more HPA stuff. I feel like it never ends sometimes...but that's ok because I absolutely love every minute of being a CO! :)
And here we are. So the last week has been pretty horrible. Eli's appendix apparently burst on...Tuesday? And then the next day the bacteria started to drip down his spine. Basically he had like 3 surgeries in a row to try and clean out the bacteria. Thankfully, it finally seems to be working. But the week was pretty stressful because all I did was basically pray that he was going to be ok.
Today has been a pretty exciting day. This morning, Sarah, Nicole, and I went into a sweet shop in town to try and find something to sell the week of Halloween for Dumbledore's Army. We found something pretty amazing (which I can't talk about because it's not approved yet) and we're hoping that people will enjoy :)
Tonight, Liz, me, and a bunch of other people (hopefully) are going out. This will be the first time I've gone out all semester and I'm pretty excited. I mean, I do work tomorrow, so I can't be out too late, but it'll still be fun. I hope. It depends on who is actually going to go with us I guess.
Well I have to go run off to do more HPA stuff. I feel like it never ends sometimes...but that's ok because I absolutely love every minute of being a CO! :)
October 5, 2010
And it's been a while....
Long time, no write. As per usual, a lot has happened since I last blogged. But today I just feel like writing about what is going on right now...so here it goes.
Working at Applebee's is going well. Actually, tonight was my first shift on my own and I think that I did pretty well. Thankfully it wasn't too busy...the biggest problem was that a lot of older people came in before 5:30pm and I ended up filling two sections because of course older people can't really sit at the high tops by the bar. But it ended up working out ok. I feel bad because some of the servers didn't really get too many tables tonight but sometimes that just happens.
I'm really looking forward to everything happening past tomorrow. Well actually tomorrow Dumbledore's Army of New Paltz is being interviewed for a spotlight on the WNPC channel, so that's pretty cool. I'm just not ready for it and it's being put together extremely last minute which kind of sucks.
But the good stuff is happening after tomorrow. Thursday, I'm going into NYC for the Triple Rainbow Awesome tour. So far it's just me, Katherine, and Carolyn going from the chapter, but that's ok. I'm just really excited to be 1)taking the train (I miss them) and 2)GOING INTO THE CITY!!
I'm so excited. This will be the first time I'm going into the city without my mom and sister. I mean I'm still going with people but I'm going on my own. And I'm going to see some of my favorite rockers which just makes it 10 times better.
Then on Friday night I work, but I'm the first one in which means I'm the first one out. And actually, I'll finally get to learn what going on a wait is like, so even though I know it will be oober stressful, I'm looking forward to it. I mean after I've worked a wait, I can probably do just about anything.
Saturday I'm going to use to relax and get ahead on my projects and studying. I only work 5pm-8pm running food, so it's not that big of a deal. And again, I'm looking forward to it because I will get to learn the food, which is something I need to do eventually if I want to bar-tend/serve. It should be a good learning experience.
Sunday, Liz, Lacey, and I are going to the HPA Blowout in Somerville. Now I am really really excited for this except for one problem...I have no idea where we are going to stay the night. I have tried asking multiple people connected to the HPA for some help, but nobody seems to want to get back to me. So that should definitely be an adventure. Hopefully it turns out to be a good one. We will be coming back to campus on Monday morning, and then even though I know it's a lot of driving in a short amount of time, I think I want to go to Martin and Janet's for Monday night until Tuesday mid-afternoon because I really want to see them and I honestly don't think I can get away again until at least November or possibly even Thanksgiving. Of course if it turns out that I normally won't work on Saturdays, then I will probably go again in two weeks because otherwise I might go insane.
Well, I guess that's about all. There's more I would love to rant about but I'm kinda exhausted so I think I'm going to read some good old Harry Potter and go to sleep.
Until next time.. :)
Working at Applebee's is going well. Actually, tonight was my first shift on my own and I think that I did pretty well. Thankfully it wasn't too busy...the biggest problem was that a lot of older people came in before 5:30pm and I ended up filling two sections because of course older people can't really sit at the high tops by the bar. But it ended up working out ok. I feel bad because some of the servers didn't really get too many tables tonight but sometimes that just happens.
I'm really looking forward to everything happening past tomorrow. Well actually tomorrow Dumbledore's Army of New Paltz is being interviewed for a spotlight on the WNPC channel, so that's pretty cool. I'm just not ready for it and it's being put together extremely last minute which kind of sucks.
But the good stuff is happening after tomorrow. Thursday, I'm going into NYC for the Triple Rainbow Awesome tour. So far it's just me, Katherine, and Carolyn going from the chapter, but that's ok. I'm just really excited to be 1)taking the train (I miss them) and 2)GOING INTO THE CITY!!
I'm so excited. This will be the first time I'm going into the city without my mom and sister. I mean I'm still going with people but I'm going on my own. And I'm going to see some of my favorite rockers which just makes it 10 times better.
Then on Friday night I work, but I'm the first one in which means I'm the first one out. And actually, I'll finally get to learn what going on a wait is like, so even though I know it will be oober stressful, I'm looking forward to it. I mean after I've worked a wait, I can probably do just about anything.
Saturday I'm going to use to relax and get ahead on my projects and studying. I only work 5pm-8pm running food, so it's not that big of a deal. And again, I'm looking forward to it because I will get to learn the food, which is something I need to do eventually if I want to bar-tend/serve. It should be a good learning experience.
Sunday, Liz, Lacey, and I are going to the HPA Blowout in Somerville. Now I am really really excited for this except for one problem...I have no idea where we are going to stay the night. I have tried asking multiple people connected to the HPA for some help, but nobody seems to want to get back to me. So that should definitely be an adventure. Hopefully it turns out to be a good one. We will be coming back to campus on Monday morning, and then even though I know it's a lot of driving in a short amount of time, I think I want to go to Martin and Janet's for Monday night until Tuesday mid-afternoon because I really want to see them and I honestly don't think I can get away again until at least November or possibly even Thanksgiving. Of course if it turns out that I normally won't work on Saturdays, then I will probably go again in two weeks because otherwise I might go insane.
Well, I guess that's about all. There's more I would love to rant about but I'm kinda exhausted so I think I'm going to read some good old Harry Potter and go to sleep.
Until next time.. :)
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